spot the differences

yo tampoco encuentro la diferencia y es muy absurdo... creo que nunca lo entenderé.

THE FEAR

me había olvidado de la contraseña xd

Hoy estoy triste y tal vez enojada... me dormí toda la tarde ! síntoma depresivo, me vine caminando a mi casa ! otro síntoma... la verdad es que siempre que me voy caminando a mi casa desde la escuela es que hay algo mal... y no es que lo sepa, sino que me he dado cuenta, las primeras veces que me venía caminando era aquellos días que prefiero no recordar. En fin, como es que la gente que no se da cuenta de a quien hiere, por quedar mejor con otras personas o tal vez por simple impulso... no lo sé, nunca pense que esto me llegaria a pasar con esta persona, nunca... lo peor de todo es que no se que decirle... ojala pudiera decirle lo mismo que le digo a los que me escuchan.
También es el miedo a generar problemas innecesarios y malentendidos, yo no quiero que nada de eso pase, no quiero perder esto que es tan importante para mí... y ya son 5 años o tal vez más, no lo sé, parece que a sido toda la vida porque no sé, es lo máximo, pero hay una razón por la que no me atrevo a hablar...

Tengo miedo.

waves & the both of us

Hoy estoy tan feliz que no me quejaé del mundo y voy a hacer mi tarea de Química y voy a acostarme temprano y no sé... :)
Hoy había un gato todo drogado en una casa alado de la escuela que me dio mucho miedo, todavia recuerdo sus ojos :s me dio mucho miedo verlo; hoy me senté en una baquetita llena de arena y cuando me paré a sacudirme, toda la arena le cayó en la cara, me disculpé y le toque el hombro *o* (ya sé... xd), y como la choti ya se estaba yendo, decidi sentarme y le dije "hablame de ti, corazon", bueno no hahaha me senté... nos quedamos callados y el rompió el hielo. "y... que me cuentas?"

(L)

Hoy me subí al taxi camino a mi casa con una sonrisa que no podía evitar. Le pedí al taxista que me dejara en el Oxxo, compré unos chicles y me fui a mi casa caminando, escuchando Waves & the both of us, bien felicilla yo n_n, aunque esa canción nada que ver la letra con lo que siento hahaha.

You could be my unintended, choice to live my life extended, you could be the one I'll always love.

I really try to keep it real, to be honest with myself. Because in the end I will be the only fool in this game, I don't know why I'm giving him the chance to bond with me, and I really want to bond with him but this doesn't envolve any kind of romance. At all. Not even in my worst nightmares dreams, ugh.

I sort of have an infatuation with having someone for myself, I just want to feel that stupid ache again, I want to wake up everyday wanting for more, but I have to be as patient as I can. I have a crush on this guy, but I don't even talk to him. I think I may be waiting for the day I see flying cows to make a move. I don't know, I'm tired of rejection.

I don't know if it's me, dude I'm not pretty but I have charm, I guess.

cautiverio.

Hace más de un año, no lo puedo creer. O sea no puedo creer que el tiempo pasa demasiado rápido, me acuerdo perfectamente de ese día, que drama xd lo que me saca es que antes era muy difícil encontrar pistas iluminadas aquí y ahora ya hay un lugar donde rentarlas ¬¬ eso me hace sentir un poco vieja haha ok nada que ver. No sé como me voy a sentir cuando cumpla 17, es que cuando tienes 16 es de "ah esa chamaquita" y cuando tienes 17 es de "ah la premujer" aunque sinceramente si me siento lo suficientemente madura para eso, pero no, 17 significa que ya voy a tener que ver lo de la universidad y la cosa :/ no sé ni que onda.

Quiero sacar mi permiso ya, para dejar de irme en taxi a la escuela, agh, y poder decir "hey ma ahorita vengo, voy a sanborns por una revista" y no tener que esperar a que caiga la suerte de que mi mama quiera ir; o poder decir "aguanta, es que el carro no tiene gasolina, voy casualmente a la gasolinera que está alado de la Mega" xd cosas asi... Ya me quiero mudar, paz, paz, paz. No más litera (yaaaay), no más espacio reducido, hola tocador, hola espejo, HOLA CLOSET, en serio, un adulto piensa que un departamento podría ser divertido o no sé... pero ni lo piensen si tienen hijos, bueno, yo tenía 2 años así que no era autosuficiente para las decisiones, pero dios, comenzando la pubertad me di cuenta de que necesito espacio y aquí no tengo, creo que por eso se me ha desarrollado un poco de claustrofobia, ya quiero decorar mi cuarto (L. Lo mejor de todo es que ya no voy a tener vecinos nacos-chismosos-ruidosos-borrachos :) aunque el precio de la mudanza no fue lo que hubieramos querido, las cosas pasan por alguna razón y siempre, no importa qué, van a tener buenas consecuencias.

Estoy demasiado aburrida, quiero ir al cine, hacer las compras, bañar al perro (ok ni perro tengo aquí), lo que sea... pero ya me cansé del encierro, o sea prefiero no salir a enfermarme, no?, pero fueron 2 semanas de que no salí mas que al cine o a casa de la choti y luego 1 semana de clases y luego encierro total u_u, está bien que no haya escuela xd pero no sé... si tan solo tuviera conmigo mis cajas de dvd's, libros, revistas... mis tiliches :( agh, ya me quiero mudar.

Hoy no tenía nada que decir y no tenía ganas de decir nada en especial, al parecer resultó ser lo contrario xd, en fin, estoy muy aburrida, estoy viendo Adventureland pero se ve horrible, el tipo no sabe grabar, se muere de hambre como camarógrafo, en serio, si va a hacer algo ilegal que lo haga bien xd.

Como yo, por ejemplo, tengo planeado subir algunos torrents y .rar's de algunos cd's :) haha xd.

Bueno, voy a seguir viendo Adventureland.

Ya quiero que sea noviembre (LLL

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle, life is a maze and love is a riddle, I don't know where to go, can't do it alone I've tried and I don't know why.

Lenka - The Show

THE RESOLUTION

There's a lot that I don't know, there's a lot that I'm still
learning
When I think I'm letting go, I find my body it's still burning

And you hold me down, and you got me living in the past
Come on and pick me up, somebody clear the wreckage from the blast

I'm alive
But I don't need a witness to know that I've survived
I'm not looking for forgiveness, I just need light
I need light in the dark as I search for the resolution

And the bars are finally closed, so I try living in the moment
For the moment it just froze, and I felt sick and so alone

I could hear the sound of your voice still ringing in my ear
I'm going underground but you'll find me anywhere I fear

I'm alive
But I don't need a witness to know that I've survived
I'm
not looking for forgiveness, I just need light
I need light in the dark as I
search for the resolution

Jack's Mannequin

Live, Laught, Tweet [Ñ]

Hoy escribo en español YAY! porque de todos modos la unica persona que lee o intenta hacerlo, habla español LOLZWUT?
me hice un Twitter :) espero no volverme adicta... en fin son las 3:48; voy a comer brb.
(4:11 pm) ok ya comi :) tengo hipo AGH! me choca porque me ahogo no sé agh... en fin, me bajé el Vuze para bajar discografias y asi, me estoy bajando la discografia completa de Miley Cyrus ahahah no me da pena admitirlo, me gusta Miley ;D, la de The Donnas y la de The Runaways ♥
voy a bajar los 2 cd's de Taylor Swift y a ver que mas me bajo... mientras no tenga mi compu voy a tratar de estar bajando la musica que perdi por la otra compu :/

en fin, me voy a tomar agua porque tengo hipo xd me molesta tener hipo, por que nos da hipo? mi mama dice que es porque respire mal o yo que se, o sea que pude haber hecho mal al respirar? es un acto de inercia no tiene que haber nada malo!

pero bueno ya dejemonos de quejar

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KSTEW!

Oh hai guise! today's my bb's birthday :)
and that's all, I could say a lot of stuff, but I mean I'm not that kind of obsessed fans that would write "Everything that's happened in my life I owe it to you and I love you because when I'm depressed I look at your picture and all my problems seem to fade away" (lolzwuut?) or something like that because no, Kristen doesn't even know me and sometimes I feel really creepy, but anyway, she's just amazing, and I hope someday I could meet her or even better, work with her (or maybe for her haha) and umm I don't know, I think she's one of the smartest people on Hollywood, and she's so... human. Despite all the haters and mean comments I LOVE YOU.

Happy birthday bb, keep on making me cry/squee with your terrific performances.

gotta love Kristen Stewart

BOW TO THE STEW!

oh hai!

Okay, since nobody but my Titi reads my journal, I will start to post to random blogs (i'm really creepy...) and umm I don't know, deal with it :)

I'm not very happy, I'm kinda dissapointed, but I think that's the way it is. That girl's such a douche, why don't you just leave him alone?

I try to count the days 'til I get my Twilight DVD and Catherine Hardwicke's notebook, but I really don't remember the date on the Amazon thingie...
I SO WANT THE F-CKING DVD!

Anyway dudes, follow me :)

UNINTENDED

I've been all... weirdly "happy" :B I don't know why haha


I haven't been hungry at lunch, I just have breakfast and I don't usually eat at dinner, I have my theories about it :)


anyway... I don't know what to write, I just wanted to upload. Stare at my ugly face while you're reading this.
I can't wait for Adventureland to come out in mexican theatres, I really really wanna watch that movie so bad! (I've read the script and it's amazingly great).

You could be my unintended
Choice to live my life extended
You could be the one I'll always love
You could be the one who listens to my deepest inquisitions
You could be the one I'll always love

I'll be there as soon as I can
But I'm busy mending broken pieces of the life I had before
Before you

CRUSCRUSHCRUSH

I've just seen a face I can't forget the time or place where we just met, he's
just the boy for me and I want all the world to see we've met :)

I think I've got a crush... And his name is kasjdksasrimnfkms.
He's a nice guy, that's all I can tell. It's just a crush but this is only for now.

If I fell in love with you
Would you promise to be true
And help me understand
cause Ive been in love before
And I found that love was more
Than just holding hands

If I give my heart to you
I must be sure
From the very start
That you would love me more than her

I kinda missed the dancing butterflies.
I'm pissed off, and tired and skdjfksj very negative stuff, but I can't help to be like... happy :s

One Armed Scissor.

Dissect a trillion sighs away
Will you get this letter?
Jagged pulp sliced in my veins
I write to remember
'cause I'm a million miles away
Will you get this letter?
Jagged pulp sliced in my veins
I write to remember

THE WHOLE CLUB WAS LOOKING AT HER

This video goes right to my iPod.
Gotta love Hayley!




Shawty had them Apple bottom jeans
Boots with the fur
The whole club was looking? at her!
She hit the flo?
Next thing you know
Shawty got low low low low low low low low

STARVING FOR YOU HERE...

...With my undying love and I will breathe for love tomorrow 'cause there's no hope for today

I haven't seen mom since she left to the hospital on Thursday night, my freaking cousin hasn't driven me to my aunt's (she's there now). I'm really hungry at this very moment, but I won't cook anything 'cause kitchen's a mess (I didn't do that mess, it was my cousin's partner) and I just saw a roach, I mean, I'm not even capable of killin roaches because I don't want to have any indirect contact with them, If I tap them with a shoe or something I don't want to wear that shoe anymore for the rest of my life. It's just disgusting. Ok, let's stop talking about roaches.

On Friday morning I hurted my wrist accidentally and It burns, on Thursday evening I don't know how did I move but my ribs hurt so much and I'm scared.

On the other way, I've been playing the Sims 2 the whole day and I'm really bored right now I mean, I've had like 3 families in the last 2 months and I have this woman that I've been raising since she was a newborn, I deleted her hahaha, I'll maybe delete all the families I've done... man, It's really boring right now, I have to share the neighborhood with my cousin and I'm not able to do my own town or something :( I can't wait for the Sims 3 (L).

The woman and the little girl in the picture are supossed to be me and my little daughter Amanda, there are no differences between my Sims and real life :D except that I'm a teenager and I'm not in good shape and I don't have a daughter (thank God) anyways, this little girl is now a teenager, and when she becomes an adult I'll move her alone and she'll marry and have kids... that's the typical thing I do with my Sims... that's why I need the Sims 3, with the new features and stuff, It'll be great!

Ok, I'll better leave and take a shower... I'll persuade dad to get pizza.

S T A L K I N G !

Ok, stop it now.

I slept the whole evening, I didn't get to visit mom :( my cousin didn't wake me up and she texted me but I can't read my messages because my celphone display is really crappy, I need to change the phone right now.

The reason why I'm posting is that Kristen was on Jimmy Kimmel! ;o; and I found new pictures of her out and about Vancouver (I didn't save those, they're just the same). The Jimmy Kimmel interview was so funny haha, man I love this girl (and Jimmy Kimmel too haha).

She talked about The Cake Eaters, If economical crisis and dollar price are in the mood to behave ok with me, maybe I'll get it with the American Twilight DVD (I hope so). It sounds like such a great movie! Those movies you can't just forget, those movies that make you cry of happiness and awareness. I like those kind of movies (also stupid comedy movies, I must say, but they're not really deep, so it is not a piece of art, except for the smart comedy with a message and that stuff, like Juno) and about Adventureland, I really hope this last one gets released in Mexico, for The Cake Eaters I have no hope, really; I mean, it will be only in select theatres in the USA so I don't really know, I really think Mexican audience doesn't really support independent and art films, they just watch because of names and commercial plots and... pretty faces... I don't know, I just admire Kristen Stewart soooo much (I lost my point, sorry) btw, I missed the Bella sexhair! (I mean, the dark brown hair; I'll miss the redhair, though)

Here you go:



I'll go to sleep right now

A N O T H E R D A Y

Hey, zup, I'm at school and umm... I'm really bored and it's reaaally boring. Did I mention I'm bored? I just had my Chemistry exam and ksassbfl I don't know :s
OMG they want to turn down the internet, fucking whores
K, I'll leave and I'll edit this thingy later (wtf nobody reads)

Ok, I first posted this at 9:07 am
I have gotten very bad grades! mom's gonna kill me, by the way, I gotta go to have a little nap, because at 4 pm I'm going to visit her at the hospital, she just had a surgery today and I turned out to be quiet well.

On the other way, yesterday (I think), the Twilight cast was on wardrobe testing, maaaan! I just missed them all together, but I didn't like Rosalie/Nikki's costumes and Alice/Ashley's hair. Kristen was just alright! I missed the dark brown hair.
They're all in Vancouver, I wished I was there :( hahah
Ok, I'll go and have my nap, my ribs hurt so bad and my dad's listening to 70/80's music I love

Someday I'm finally gonna let go, 'cause I know there's a better way, and I wanna know what's over that rainbow, I'm gonna get out of here someday.

Photo: Vancouver (Google Image)

so mad

I'm so mad! I was writing an entry, a very very deep entry (k, not so deep) and Internet Explorer just went down and the entry wasn't saved D: anyways, I think I'll write about it later.

For those who can't understand english (yeah, like I have a lot of readers), I'm so sorry, but I think I explain myself easier when it comes to writing/speaking in english.

Photo: no smoke by ~xcolor